natalie_caliga

Monday Dec 17
Ministry of Magic
independent study time

This week has been pretty craptastic so far with one lovely exception: Dean.

I saw a dead person up close yesterday. It was strange. I had nightmares about him last night. I think I was wrongly upset at Harry and now he's being such a butt that I can't get un-mad at him. He wants to give up being my mentor. Like I'll allow that. He probably should not have let me note the body, but I am a bit glad he did. I can get past this. I can.

Lots of thoughts of Dennis lately. I found some old snaps of us. I think I may start pasting copies in here. Perhaps see if Dean can make me a nice painting of one of them. I don't know. I took most of Den's pictures down after he died because it hurt to look at him. Perhaps it's time to put them back up.

These are two of my faves.


My da caught Dean and I making out last night. I was so embarrassed. It was nice though. Even though I didn't know what I was doing. Definitely should have paid more attention late at night in the common room. I don't think it's normal for a man to catch his only daughter sitting atop a shirtless bloke, her in just her bra, and tell them to carry on when he realized he'd interrupted. He's probably just so excited to have people in the house again. Clem as well. I didn't REALLY want to see anyone last night and that little stinker replied to Dean's owl herself and told him to come on over.

As for Dean, I don't know what to do with any of it. I'm having a hard time closing off from him. What if he decides he doesn't like me? That's going to hurt. He asked me out on a date for Friday. I've never been on a date before. I find myself focusing on that and being excited, despite all the other stuff going on. I like him. A lot. He makes me happy. I wonder if I should let him paint naked pictures of me. I wouldn't let anyone but him see them, of course, but it might be fun. Touching his chest sure was fun, and I didn't hate him touching me either.